Painful waiting

I am still waiting for a reply from Concordia regarding my acceptance in the Fall.  I have been cruising Kijiji and Craiglist for apartments with much appreciated help from my friend Corrie in Montreal.  I sent her a long list of possible places which turned out to be laughable in terms of location (apparently I'm not very good at deciphering distance on Google maps).  My portfolio came back in the mail today, so I hope that's a good sign.   Teachers and colleges  keep on telling me that 'of course I'm getting in' and to continue to plan for the move to Montreal, but I know it won't seem real, and I won't begin hauling ass until I've heard from them.  So, alas the wait continues.

On a sadder and more important note, my lovely grandmother Clara has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.  I found out tonight that it has spread to her liver.  So, obviously she is experiencing the ultimate painful wait.  It must be so surreal to know that you are going to die soon, and that you are actually saying good-bye to your loved ones forever (at least in this lifetime).  I have taken a week off school to spend time with her while she is at Lions Gate Hospital here in Vancouver.  My priorities have been really made clear since I heard the bad news, and especially after spending so much precious time with her. I know that being with her is all that matters, even though I am in the home stretch of my two year textiles program.  My teachers have been more than understanding, giving me extensions on everything (thank you, thank you, thank you).  

A couple of nights ago I was visiting with her wearing one of my Penny Shrugs and she admired it all night long.  I would take it off and shortly after she would ask to see it on me again.  I told her that I would make her one and she happily complied but only under the condition that I do no use "that lovely fabric....it's too nice".  Of course she deserves only the nicest yarn, and I made it for her today, only after she made some button choices yesterday (she chose the brown ceramic ones).  I'll be seeing her tomorrow and adorning her with it, hopefully helping her feel cozy and beautiful